Happy Bday to me!

I have a love-hate relationship with my birthday. Some of the most traumatic days I have ever had have been this day. Bad stuff. But each year, I experience an overwhelming sense of hope for the year to come. Thank God I can truthfully say that this past year has been one of the best if not the best year of my life. I believe that this birthday not only gives me time to reflect on that but the hope to believe that the trend will continue.

So what is my wish? I had four candles placed in front of me and was told one was for the past, one for the present, one for the future and one for my wish. Of course, I was reminded, a wish only comes true if you don't tell anyone what it is. So you can guess all you want, my dreams are sealed.

Here's to growing a year older. Here's to the last year of a decade (again, you'll have to guess which one), here's to a birthday which celebrates earth day. Here's to healing and standing up for oneself. Here's to new understandings and new desires. Here's to coming home in my own body. And finally, here's to all of my dear friends and family that hold me in their hearts. Thanks, passionate, creative, lover, God. Thanks for this life. I'm doing my best.

Hello. Here's the thing. Those of us who have a strong desire to see changes in the policy (in the CofC Denomination) which keeps gay men and lesbians (not to mention bi-sexual and transgendered persons - and hey - what would we do with someone who is transsexual?)out of the Priesthood are sick and tired of waiting. And frankly, tired of discerning. And listening. All I know to do is start praying. Start praying that the brothers and sisters around the world who claim God as their Creator will acknowledege the beauty of all creation. Start praying that whatever it takes to change an archaic policy will happen sooner than later. Start praying that those who are too tired, to hurt, too sad, too disgusted, too frustrated to wait any longer will still be around and open when we finally do the right thing. Start praying for our souls. Because I fear that if we don't move forward on this and start acknowledging and accepting ministry from all those whom God has called, we will have some serious explaining to do.

God help us all.