Wednesday, January 30, 2008

So here's the deal

So...here's the deal. I totally got caught up in life outside of blogger and am just returning to this endeavor. There were some nice comments on my first two posts (of almost a year ago). And I'm thinking it would be good to continue this.

So much has happened this past year. From a fibro perspective, things are much better. I've been put on seroquel and have gone off of my sleep and anxiety meds as well as the trazadone I have been taking over 15 years. I found a great doc who mixes pragmatism with buddhism with intelligence and it's working for me.

I am still struggling with meaning. i.e., how do I live in this world and not have the energy or freedom from pain that I feel would be helpful in navigating it's ups and downs. Each day I spend lying in bed, waiting for a burst of energy that will enable me to shower and get dressed, feels like an eternity. And a waste. Which is exactly what I don't want my life to be. (An eternity or a waste).

I do feel as if I'm getting most of my brain function back and I'm working part time which is great.

So welcome back to me. Enjoy the ride.